Abed Hamdan

Why do you Blog ?

Something I’ve been trying to write but never managed to finish… It’s the silent emptiness of despair that’s filling my universe. I live in denial, I act normally most of the time, eventhough I deeply know that nothing is even close to normal, and normal is a very relative term. It could be normal, but it’s not. Something isn’t right and I know it. I’ve tried to run away, to evade, to disappear, to vanish, but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t. I am more convinced than ever that I can change many, many things, but I can’t change myself. I can’t pretend, I can’t evade, and I can’t change what I am.

This could be depression, a very severe and advanced state of sadness, so deep that it blackened my surroundings and narrowed my universe to the point of chocking me to death. Not exactly death, but to a rather long term torture where I can’t even beg for death because I’m scared it could be worse. It could really be worse.

I can’t put an end to all this, because I am strained, but neither can I silently watch. I tried to escape and “live my life” only to come back more messed up than before. I see them every single night in my dreams, they’re alive, and their eyes are distant, expressionless. They lost interest in life, death, and the promised heaven after death. I can’t hide, not in a nightmare where I am the center of attention. I can’t hide from their inevitable reproachful starring eyes, but only it’s much more intimidating than that. It’s a hopeless look without the faintest trace of interest. Truth I’ve been trying to escape my entire life. It creeps, and it fills me with unbearable sadness and pain. It’s living in my subconscious, nurtured by my desperate impotence, by my fear. Fear is the right word. It’s the painful word I’ve been looking for all this time.

There’s no end to this, I am sentenced to this. I can’t change that. It’s either the suffocating endless hours of conscience pain, or the hollow emptiness agony of denial. Either fear of the aftermath of denial, or fear of the painful reality of any reckless desperate reaction. Either way, it’s a constant self-loathing state of disgust.

يا خسارة…أبدعوى الجاهلية ونحن في القرن الواحد والعشرين ؟؟

قال لي أخي اليوم:

أنت لست أخي..فأنا بلدي مستقل..وأنت متشرد ليس لديك وطن

قلت له:

كل بلاد العرب أوطاني…كل بلاد الإسلام أوطاني

قال لي:

لا يوجد شيء إسمه عروبة ولا إسلام ولا وحدة…يكفيك أحلاما فارغة

أنا لست أخوك ولا أنتا أخي

قلت له:

موافق على قطع صلة الأخوة بيني وبنيك إذا كنت تصر..ولكن ذلك يحزنني أشد الحزن

قال لي:

لا أريد أن يكون لدي إخوة من بلدكم…فأنتم لم تجلبوا سوا المشاكل لنا

قلت له:

موافق أقطع الأخوة بيننا وبينك على شرط

قال لي:

مستعد لتنفيذ أي شرط لكي أتخلص من قذارتكم

قلت له:

شرطي سهل وبسيط..إذا لم تريد أن تكون أخي فهناك ممنوعات بسيطة:

ممنوع أن تتكلم لغتي..فلغتي العربية..لغة القرأن الكريم..مسموح أن تتكلم لغة من قتلوا أطفالنا واغتصبوا نسائنا

ممنوع أن تأكل من نفس الطعام الذي نأكل..مسموح لك فقط أكل البيتزا والبيرجر وأوساخ الغرب

ممنوع أن تدخل بلد عاش فيه أجدادي..فدخولك له اعتراف بالأخوة بيننا…فقد سكن بعض أجدادي على نفس الأرض التي سكن بها أجدادك

ممنوع أن تتزوج من بلادي…فالطيبون للطيبات والخبيثون للخبيثات

ممنوع أن تدخل المساجد ولا كنائس الشرق…فإخوتي هناك قد يعرفون أنك أخي

ممنوع أن تلبس من ملابسنا…فنحن أصحاب العمامات والعبائات وأصحاب الستر والعفاف….ولا نكشف عوراتنا مثل الحيوانات…التعري مسموح لك.

ممنوع أن يكون شكلك يشبهني…حاول بكل الطرق ان تغير لونك وشكلك..فأنت تشبهني شبه شديد..وأنت لا تريد أن يعرف أحد إنني أخوك

أمك وأبوك يشبهاني كثيرا…عليك أن تقول للناس أنك لقيط لكي لا يشكوا انك أخي من نفس أمي وأبي

قال لي:

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النهاية مفتوحة…وحزينة

It’s the first time I write a “blog of the day” post, but seriously guys, for the first time I get surprised, delighted, and amused by a blog of a young girl. There are so many young girls bloggers out there, and they’re really good, but this blog took my attention today.

I know I am not a regular blogs reader anymore, but lately I’ve been reading left and right, randomly, whatever I stumble upon, specially if the post is short. I found some pattern in the blogs, a boring pattern to be honest. So I stopped. Then I went back to the blogs I used to read few years back, such as Qwaider, Ola, Rasha, Moey, Sou, and they are as exciting as they used to be. But Shaden’s blog (The Sugar Cubes) was the one that made my day.

Her writing style has matured big time. Not that it wasn’t good, it was very good, but now it’s becoming influential, brief, and profoundly powerful. Something I really missed.

Perhaps I am just sick of the hypocrisy in the middle east, and I can’t stand one more hypocrite post, kissing the ass of one government (for whatever reason), or cheerleading for one not-so-sexy blogger. Seriously guys, we’ve had it.

And I didn’t change my mind, for those who knew me long enough, they know that I firmly believe that the most depraved of all aren’t the simple ones who go with the flow, no I actually pitty those, and I can go as far as considering them my brothers. I can also skip the fact that they can be harmful, because they do it unintentionally. I’d like to quote Plato on this:

“As empty vessels make the loudest sound, so they that have the least wit are the greatest blabbers “

and dear Lord, how many empty vessels do we have!!

I can go on and make execuses for those, but at certain point we need to shut them up.

Now going back to the most depraved of all, in my very humble opinion, I think the most depraved of all are those who know they support the devil, and they do it intentionally. They know themselves, and they have their own agenda. We all know it. They know it.

Sometimes they belong to a certain family, and that family is known for its support to a certain party, and money talks here.

Others belong to a certain group, with certain beliefs. Be it religous, political, or whatever. Those will just do about anything to support their party. Even when they know they’re wrong, they will do it malicously, continuously, and they can write infleuntial articles. Those I have no mercy for.

I quit writing for a while now, for so many reasons. It’s not that I don’t have time (my regular lame execse). I have all the time in the world, actually I have time to read those thousands of pages books, and I finish them in 3 days sometimes. Along with that, I pass sophisticated exams, and work for 14 - 16 hours sometimes. So yes, I am the king of my own time, I always have time.

There are so many reasons why I don’t write any more, some of which are too personal to share, and some aren’t that important. All in all, I won’t share why I do not write. It’s not important at all. Whatever.

I know I post “things” sometimes, but this is not writing. This is not what I do. One song, picture, or one quote isn’t quite me.

My writing style is not organized anymore, this post was supposed to be about The Sugar Cubes, and I just made it about me.

The sugar cubes is a blog worth reading, an honest intellecual is the least to say.

over silly and stupid stuff of course…

sorry but how old are you guys ??

kids.

A fairly interesting post by Jasim (click here to read), triggered to write that was in my mind long time ago, and I think I pretty much said everything I wanted to say in the comments I wrote on his post.

He talked about human beings being evil in general, which is something I profoundly agree and understand, but I think I have more to add to this issue.

This is what I wrote to Jasim as a comment:

you touched a very important piece of wisdom, and by the way many philosophers talked about this, it’s even in the Quran that you will not find most of the people ( ولو حرصت) believers.

But there’s a catch here, and be careful. Humanity is evil, but human being isn’t evil ! Which means, humanity in general is ugly, the masses are ugly, however you will ALWAYS find unconquerable individuals, with the purest hearts, and those tiny few individuals are those moving our world and keep it in progress, they’re as one philosopher called them “The immovable movers”.

nice post buddy.

I will add more to my response.

How do I react to this ?

I first become an authentic reliable individual myself, then I seek those who are. If I get disappointed, I’ll get even stronger in terms of wisdom and correct decision-making. And trust me, at the end of the day, integrity prevails.

so what do you think people ?

Interesting article, click here to read…

PS: Click on each image for a larger view

PPS: It’s sun rise not sun set

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See you in another life, dearest
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This is beyond false hope.. this is insane !
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يا أيها الإنسان ماغرك بربك الكريم ؟؟
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This is Irbid, summer 2007. Picture taken from my room..
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By the way, the hardest question so far is what do I want ?

What do you want people ? you’ve got no clue, do you?!

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hehe, good times

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Edward Said commenting on Chomsky’s work “There’s something profoundly moving about a mind of such noble ideas repeatedly stirred on the behalf of human suffering and injustice”

what if there’s nothing profoundly moving about the audience ?
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Little did I know then that the easy way is not hard enough, but the hard way is so lonely, lonely, loney….
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nor can I have my apple and eat it too…
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“Aboudii, you need to see what’s there ”
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you have no idea what I need…
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وليعلم الذين ظلموا أي منقلب ينقلبون…والعاقبة للمتقين
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“Man is condemned to be free” -Jean-Paul Sartre

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والأخرة خير وأبقى.
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Ever since I decidedly abandoned my blog, it has been haunted by my invaluable loyalist friends who keep on asking and leaving comments here and there, thank you sooooo much

According to Jersualem, I have to write 6 things, pieces of wisedom, that people should learn before being 18. I HATE GIVING ADVICE.

1. Learn how to learn from your mistakes, especially the painful ones.

2. If your father keeps telling you that people with clear consciene and sharp integrity are doomed to fail, never believe him. Integrity always prevails.

3. First love never workout.

4. You aren’t always right, and you have to have the courage to admit that you are wrong especially when a vicious opponent proves you wrong.

5. You should seriously start building a solid profound understanding of your religion and beliefs.

6. Don’t listen to me because I’m not serious 99.9% of the time.

I tag: Asoom, Adoosh, Noura, Sharifo, Eman.

By an exquisite effort of Summer, this video of Jerusalem came to existence:

This effort is not to be under estimated. This is a sheer evidence of the identity of the city.

A city that is claimed to be pure Israeli. Here you see Arab Muslims, living in ancient houses, in a city that does not look Israeli. It’s a city whose inhabitants rebel every two decades or so to preserve their identity. It’s a holy city where god is to be worshiped. It’s a city that’s supposed to be peaceful, but alas peace knows not of.

This is one amazing secret I found at post secret!! ( what is Post Secret ? )

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Yes, I spent the best 10 days of my life in Palestine! This is why I didn’t blog in a while

So much to write about, and so many things in my mind! Palestine is magnificent! I can’t write enough about the beauty of the occupied territories of Palestine.

In Palestine, everything is different. The trees, the stones, the smell, the wind, the food, the people, the buildings…I can go on forever! It’s a shame that war is taken place there.

So much to say about the beauty of Palestine. And of course, so much to say about the Israeli occupation, stupid interrogations in the Allenby Bridge, screwed up check points scattered all over the West Bank, and of course Fateh vs. Hamas insanity.

Well, let’s start with the beauty of Palestine. I visited : Ramallah, Tulkarem, Jenin, and many villages in between. With Ramallah being the most modernized city in the west bank, Jenin is more like a big village. Tulkarem is something in between. Since beauty is best sensed through the eye, I took photographs of almost everything!

I finally bought a flickr pro account so I can upload as much photos as I want, here are the photos organized in sets according to the cities they were taken in:

1) ‘Arrabeh (3arrabeh) [ Our old roots belongs here].
2) Ya’bad (ya3bad) [ Ya'bad is the village my family belongs to].
3) Zabda [ Small village, belongs to the family].
4) Ramallah

and yes I didn’t take photos of all the cities, I forgot to take the camera to Jenin and Tulkarem

Almost everywhere you wander in Palestine, you will see pictures of martyrs. Pictures are hung on traffic lights, houses, walls, …
They’re silent pictures immortalizing the struggle of the Palestinians against the occupation. Almost every family have lost a child or two in the last Palestinian uprising (intifada), including our family.

The Israelis interrogated me in the crossing bridge between Jordan and Palestine because I haven’t visited Palestine in years! As funny and stupid as it may sound but it’s a routine measurement! The interrogation went smoothly. A 20s something guy with a Lebanese Arabic accent (a Durzi maybe) asked me few questions. What’s you name? Where have you been? when are you getting married? How is life in Jordan? Are there hot girls in Jordan ?
with questions like these, I didn’t know whether I should laugh or keep my mouth shut. I answered formally without even smiling. Perhaps it’s my lack of experience, but I was very anxious. Anyway, the journey was pretty safe.

Inside Palestine, there are check points almost everywhere just to make the Palestinian life even harder. What bugged us most is the stupid rule they’re imposing on every creature living in Jenin! if your haweyyeh (Israeli ID) is issued in Jenin, then you’re not allowed to leave Jenin!! They allow you to enter Jenin, but leaving Jenin would require you to take different roads or to rely on the mood of the Israeli soldiers.

Everybody in Palestine have a story to tell about the check points. Ranging from the most humiliating encounter you could ever imagine to the funniest one. I heard many stories about Israeli soldiers asking men to take off their pants in the street (what’s so interesting about naked men ?). Some got arrested for no reason. Some were beaten up savagely. Some were asked to start a party in the middle of the street while others were asked to belly dance in the street (again, what’s so interesting in dancing men?). I’ve been asked about my age. In Ramallah I’ve been asked about my job, and when my answer was “fresh graduate”, both soldiers exchanged weird glances let me pass so I can get married. Rookh ettjawwaz (go get married, in a distorted Arabic accent). I don’t know why the Israeli soldiers are very concerned about my single hood.

Almost everybody in Palestine is talking about Fateh and Hamas. People are split, with the majority in the west bank supporting Fateh. Everybody in Palestine is a politician, and everybody in Palestine have a better vision than all the political leaders. Specially those who spend most of the day in cafes smoking and drinking coffee. It’s the new issue to talk about, and people in Palestine have distinguished ways of having fun.

One more thing I noticed in some Palestinian villages is that many people are making their living by stealing things from illegal Israeli settlement! It’s a win-win job! The Israelis intentionally make it very easy for Palestinians to steal their goods (especially cars and motor cycles) so that Israelis can get paid by Israeli insurance companies. Many Palestinians in Ya’bad (my village) have Israeli friends from the nearby Israeli settlement who make deals by trade Israeli cars to Palestinians for low prices, and fool the Israeli insurance companies. Many Palestinians are comfortable with stealing from Israelis as a pay back because Israelis stole Palestinian lands. Since when theft is ok ??

I’ve got many stories to tell, but enough said for now.

I missed Palestine already.

Click on image to enlarge

Macbeth, William Shakespeare.

(Random photo, I found it online, I don’t know the source)

Question:

How often do we genuinely smile this way?

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Yesterday was a day to remember, for many reason’s, Macadi Nahhas’s concert was one crucial reason. There I met Hayat, her foreign friend (I forgot his name?), and my friend Ghassan (the one who writes comments with the name m3awwz). The fellow blogger Roba was also there. It’s good to see you all

Macadi’s performance was awesome, and there’s something about her voice, something that can’t be described by words. I’m really impressed ! She sung many songs without musical instruments, mawaweel, and those were amazing. Her voice reminded me of Fairouz. I’m not saying she’s better than Fairouz, and I’m not saying Fairouz is better either. She’s just different. And she’s young, she has all the future waiting for her. Way to go Macadi

She was obviously nervous at the very beginning of the concert, she was singing more like Om Kolthoom, and yes her clothes also reminded me of Om Kolthoom. Don’t get me wrong here, I love Om Kolthoom, I’m talking positively. But then she broke the ice with few jokes.

“Natalie” was the song of the concert, and the song Macadi tried to promote in her new album Khilkhal.

Finally I would like to thank Macadi for the autograph she signed for me, and the one she signed for MaYoSh (who introduced me to Macadi). Thanks for your nice words

you can listen to some songs of the concert on Roba’s blog.

=== update ===:

Khobbeizeh was also at the concert! He recorded some songs!

It’s very disappointing and exasperating to see how two girls can be best friends one day, and worst enemies the other day!

I tried to understand the complicated motivations and sick intentions of some girls. I mean why on earth would I hate someone to the point that I become obsessed with everything related to him? Actually I have no time for childish hatred!

I’m astonished how one girl can keep on hurting another with no acceptable reason Or are “jealousy” and “envious” acceptable reasons? you tell me.

I recall becoming furious from some of my friends in the past,but how did I react? did I hurt them? not in million years! I merely ignored them, and that was more than enough. My parents raised me well.

So tell me, why some girls are too lame, stupid, ignorant, clueless, punks, and limited minded that they can’t get over their jealousy from each others and stop hurting each others??

I know we were not all raised in the same circumstances, and not everybody out there is well behaved. but hey, at least there are some smart ways to show jealousy, rather than hurting each others. or better yet you can go get yourself a god damned life instead of hurting others.

and here I would like to end this with a saying of the holy prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings being upon him):

المسلم من سلم المسلمون من لسانه ويده

“The Muslim is the one whom other Muslims are not hurt by his/her tongue and hand”

Did you hear that girls ? stop hurting each others with your shit full tongue.

The rich, the filthy rich, and the not so filthy rich. I’m not sure if we can distinguish between different levels of filthiness. I’m not an economist, never was, and never will be. But Amman is becoming worse everyday.

People are either too rich, too cool, or else they are classified as Nawar. The 7afartal. Those evil poor guys who don’t have enough money to buy clothes from expensive malls, those girls who aren’t cool enough to drive Mercedes Benz and can’t afford a Chanel dress.

This is nasty.

I’m not talking about private corporations. Those illegitimate private tyrannies ! No, this is not what I’m really talking about. I’m talking about people. About “cool” people who walk in the streets of Amman, with headsets and empty brains. Those who don’t know anything about the history of Jordan. Those who can’t talk about their country abroad.

Those fools, who classified people as either cool or 7afartal. How could they judge the poor ?? Just because they don’t have enough money to buy cars (or they’re not stupid enough to take loans to buy cars) and use public transportation!

Speaking of public transportations, I used to roam East Amman with less than 1 JD! can anybody tell me why can’t we go to certain places in West Amman using public transportation ?? Abdoun for example ??

Jordan is not West Amman. West Amman is not Jordan. Jordan is Petra. Jordan is Kerak, and Umm Qais. Jordan is the beautiful mountains of Ajloun. Jordan is the strong Refugee camps. Jordan is land of Jordanians, Palestinians, and Caucasians. All under one flag, with common convictions, sharing one beautiful dream of living peacefully.

Being filthy rich means you’ve got lots of money. Nothing wrong with having so much money that it comes out of your nostrils. But it’s a felony to forget about those who live in slums! In refugee camps, in villages. Not only did they forgot about those poor, but also they’re classifying them as the ” evil not-so-cool 7afartal ” who uses public transportation and who don’t go to “Blue Fig” cafe.

What can I say ?? Ignorance is awful.

What can we do?

I urge all my fellow bloggers to write about this very same issue. Even if you’re not in Jordan, write about it in your country.

Talking and writing about an issue can affect the way people think and behave, so don’t underestimate the power of ideas!

If you’re not a blogger, you can always talk about this ugly disease to your friends, family, colleagues, ..etc. Nothing is inevitable, everything can be reversed.

My lovable brother TheArabObserver has also initiated a tag about the very same topic but from a different perspective. Click Here.

=== Update ===

My fellow sister SimSim wrote neatly about the subject. From a different perspective, of course. Click Here.

Funny how easy I lose all my senses of security. Just when I thought I got rid of those unsettling conflicting desires, they float on the surface again. Like the Pharaohs’ curse; no matter how deep it’s buried in time, it will always be there.

What world is this? What ruthless reality is this? where you can either fight or flee. I tried both, and I didn’t sense any sort of peace – or even settlement - in any. What society is this? What worlds of what shores?!

I’m suffering from a chronic, severe, sick habit of committing the same mistake again, and again. To fall for wrong people, to try to oppose the masses, to stand in the face of the mainstream of fools, is an utter insanity! And sometimes I wonder what true sanity is.

It’s definitely my desire, my sinful guts to dream, my agitating sense of worth, my beautiful irritating ego, my strong convictions, the will to live free instead of imploring freedom. It’s time when I have to wake up and smell the bitter fragrance of reality. It’s time when I have to succumb merely to survive and I…surrender.

Can anybody tell me who is Macadi Nahhas , please ?

[ Update]

Aljazeera journalist asked Al-Tantawi what’s his opinion regarding the desturction of parts of Al-Aqsa. Al-Tantawi was not aware of what’s happening and was completely careless. He asked the journalist to tell him the details of the situation, and then he asked her if this is happening today…then he asked why Israel does such thing, then he said if Israel is destroying Al-Aqsa, then a strict measure should be taken to stop this attack. The Journalist asked him how could this attack be stopped ? specially that Israel prevented anybody from entering Al-Aqsa. Then he said that all Muslims in Jerusalem should stand in the face of the caterpillars, he responded ignorantly, that Palestinians should stand, and it’s their problem, men and women! (mass suicidal), then if they standed infront of the caterpillars, then all the world will support them (them as if it’s not his business), and then they should victimize themselves and shouldn’t ask anybody to stop it. The journalist told him that Israel forbid any Palestinian from entering Al-Aqsa, then he responded stupidly by answering there’s nothing called “forbid” and those caterpillars are driven by people.

Then he asked the journalist, “What do you want from me ???” . she said she wanted to hear the opinion of the AL-Azhar imam, he answered “Do you want anything else?” “Goodbye”.

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I’m irked, irritated, and sick of this!!!

but as I promised myself to respect my fellow bloggers and readers, I won’t speak dirty here.

This is what we get from Al-Azhar, and the “imam” Al-Tantawi, he speaks of Al-Aqsa as if it’s not his business!! of course!! I wonder what problems does he care about ?? and Im wondering how much does it take to bribe some people here.

blaming the Palestinians for the destruction of Al-Aqsa, as if the Palestinians didn’t suffer in the last 6 decades, and as if the whole world didn’t prevent every single penny from entering Palestine.

As if Al-Azhar did anything to Palestine.

you know what, I don’t wanna start flaming on Al-Azhar! this is not the time and place for this.

but sorry, this time, my mouth won’t shut. This is the most irresponsible, ignorant, stupid, lame, ugly, bribed, careless, and retard speech I’ve ever heard.

he speaks of actions and yet he does nothing but speaking and telling Palestinians what to do. He wants a mass suicidal sqauds of Palestinians in the face of the Israeli tanks to protect Al-Aqsa, and that’s how he will move his lazy butt and do something.

Why, of course! It’s not his screwed up responsibility. Actually, he has no responsibilities at all. Nobody does.!! just eat, sleep, and get paid for defending your Pharaoh. and That’s it!! you are Ameer el mo2mineen!

Now I KNOW I shouldn’t give a damn anymore and I should stop caring about everything in the world.

Why should I care about the whole world when the world doesn’t care about me?

The only one I should care about and apologize to is the man I see in mirror; It’s getting harder to live in this selfish world without being a selfish bastard.

The world is going crazy these days, angry protests here and there, and .. hmm, I don’t know what to say. This is not good for anybody, here I mean the conflict about Islam and pope speech.

Some might argue that this anger will take some time and then everybody will forget what happened and things will cool again. I beleive this is way too dangerous. We still remember when Bush declared a “crusader war” , and then he aplogized and said it was a “slip of the tongue”. Then, the Danish cartoons, the facism, and lately what pope said.

Do you know why do I think that this is a very dangerous ?? because, It’s not only provoke for counter-terror attacks, but also it justifies what terrorists do, and beleive me this is the most dangerous thing. There’s a non-questionable denial of all forms of terror attacks across the Arab/Muslim world, specially between the educated people but, however, after we hear such irresponsible statements like “crusader war” or “facism” or whatevever it becomes highly likely that some educated will at least sympathize with terrorists. For example, when we hear terms like “crusader war”, we immediately hear and see some Al-Qaeda people on TV justifying their attacks by “stopping the crusader war”, and this happened before, and still happening.

In response to Pope’s late speech, Al-Qaeda promised to continue its attacks against the west in response to the disrespect of Islam and Muslims, and this is sick. In the last two weeks, we witness the murder of some British tourists in Jordan, and we’re getting enough of this really.

Now the question is, what’s the end of this madness ?? where are we going ??

Death: Good morning

Abed: Good morning ?? What ?? Is it my time ??

Death: No, I don’t have much work to do today. So , you still remember me ?

Abed: Hell yes, I still remember you, we met four times before, and the last one was so close, remember ?

Death: HaHa, Yes I do! I was just saying hi!

Abed: Your “hi” was unpleasant, so is you, and you’re not funny whatsoever!

Death: Why ?? Am I scarying you ?

Abed: No, you don’t scare me. I know you’re always arround, and hell you move by orders, you don’t do things on your own, so take it easy dude.

Death: But you were scared last time.

Abed: It’s ok, you’re like a needle, you hurt, but you’re an inevitable, and you don’t take much longer than a needle. So why should I be scared ?

Abed: And you know what ?? you inspired me several times. Trust me you did!

Death: Im cold, and paralyzed, and painful. I don’t inspire, I scare people. I cause tears and pain.

Abed: You do ? *yellow smile*

Death: Yes I do! and Im an unexpected guest.

Abed: and who told you that tears and pain are something bad ?? Tears taught me how to laugh, and pain taught me how to love, and being unexpected makes you a surprise, and we like surprises!

Death: That makes me good ?

Abed: That makes you nothing, and the good news is, you’ll eventually vanish, when we’re back, and you’ll not be back again, trust me on this.

Death: At least you’ll die once, before that happen! And It will be painful! *winks*

Abed: Get lost, I’ll die, but I’ll be back, you won’t!

Death: Kiss my butt!

Abed: Loser, It’s 5:40 Am, and I have to get some sleep! now get out, you’ve got a busy day, don’t you ??

Death: We’ll meet soon!

Abed: bye!

Due to the sad war that took place in Lebanon, we had the chance to see lots of different point of views coming from different backgrounds. I became fimiliar with the racists, and I actually knew what’s the main cause of their racism.

I’m not going to talk about racism between Arab & West or about Propaganda, not at all. Rather, I’m going to talk about the racists Arabs. I’m going to talk about the mentality behind the racist, and what all racists share.

Racism in the Arab world has a very old root, and the Arab world witnessed many unfortunate events among history, and is prone to witness an even worse events. That’s why I think It’s so important to understand how these racists think and how they promote their poisonous ideas inorder to stop them whenever possible. And I beleive that most of the terror attacks are due to this racism.

Muslim, Christian, or Jew ?
In the holy land of messengers and prophets of God, It’s so easy to provoke for terror and racism. At high school in Kuwait, most of the students were Muslims. I’d give a percentage of 85% Muslims and 15% Christians. We never talked about our religions, I can’t remember asking any student what’s his religion, It never mean anything to me. But however, outside the high school community, there was always this thing, you can feel the difference in the eyes of some people.

There are some people in the Arab world who have no job but differentiating between people as infidel and beleiver. I think that a small answer like “Who set you God to decide who’s infidel?” will shut them up, because most of them are ignorants, and they lack the solid background to get into any decent discussion. Few of those are well read, and they might argue a little bit, so you must have a religous background and patience to stop these. Problem is, some people here are very aggressive when you contradict their opinions, and they might argue with loud voice to stop you. I always kill these people with my patience and short answers, and I beleive that this is the only to deal with them. Of course, you should have a good background inorder to speak their langauge.

Sunni or Shi’a ?
This is the new delimma were facing recently in the Arab world. It’s the new poison that has been spreaded widely, and I personally think It’s the most dangerous. There’s a difference between the Sunnah & Shi’a in Islam, but however, both are Muslims and beleives in Muhammad, peace and blessing being upon him. Going back to my high school memories, I’d give a percentage of 50% Sunnah 50% Shi’a of the Muslims at school, and the same percentage goes for the Kuwaiti community.

Actually, this problem is small right now, but It’s getting serious sometimes, specially in places like SaudiArabia, and I was shocked when I read reactions of some Saudi bloggers to the war against Lebanon. They were against Lebanon !! Just because Hezbollah is Shi’a, and this is absurd!

If somebody asks me “Are you Sunnah or Shi’a ?” , then my answer will be “None of your business”. Why in the world would somebody care ?? What difference should this make ?? Aren’t we supposed to focus on other more important issues rather than fighting each others like idiots ??

I developed a common pattern to deal with them, and to answer their claims gently, and shut their mouths if necessary. Everyday is a new experience, and everyday I have something new to learn.

That’s what I was talking about a week earlier…

Yes, Americans. Your government used the Veto to prevent stopping the war, and your smart bombs & stupid government caused this disgrace.
A Massacre by your weapons took place, most of the victims are children. Your smart bombs either kills or wounds in a brutal manner.

Live in this shameful disgrace, there’s no dignity left. The worse is yet coming, in the next few days. Thanks for your taxes, smart bombs and stupid government.

Your Stupid bombs…

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